A surge of motivation is felt
A surge of conviction
A thought of "from now on I will..."
Triggered from a quote
A movie
A conversation
A book
You have high hope for a new beginning
You never change but you think you don't lack clarity
It's abundantly clear in the moment
How your life will be different
"from now on..."
And every time you catch yourself
3h later almost always sooner
"You see you don't act differently"
"You are not changed at all"
Your surge of motivation passed
A surge of conviction vanished
You are the same
You act the same
We always default to our default.
500 loops of the same experience
Nothing changes
You scroll
You quit
You consume
You borrow
Ideals
Sincerity
Convictions
Vision from others
500 times you begun
500 times you were forced to reconsider your interest
We live a life of borrowed sincerity
Which lead to a wasted life
Unable to understand what's truly ours or what's borrowed
500 times you wanted a different life
Out of fear of not finding one.